Hey Gek, how's it going? You know man, it's going all right. I think I started off this recording session

with a lot of energy because but it's it's kind of I feel like I'm crashing a little bit has ever happened to you?

Oh really?

Yeah, yeah I I've been crashing a lot lately like I I don't know it was definitely an after

college type deal where I just I feel pooped a lot of the time but yeah yeah I

So tell me what is did you wanted to talk about

Um So tell me what is it you wanted to talk about? Um, well, there's a few things. I guess right now I am like pretty I am pretty depressed I would say but like there are things

that I like should be happy about I mean shit I'm happy to be talking to you right now to be honest but

also have some O. C. D. that drags me down a lot during the day.

And it's just like filled with a lot of intrusive thoughts, a lot of like, I'd like, it's more like

compulsions to, um, to my thoughts because like O. is like more towards reassurance like you have to

consistently like reassure yourself a lot of the time and it just takes up like hours of my day and like I could be

doing more to do better about it but it's just been really hard it's been really hard.

What do you what do you what are you attempting to reassure yourself of on a daily

basis?

Um, that I'm a good person that I'm like, uh, like I'm a good guy and know I'm a good guy,

but it's like, a lot of the times it's like I'm a good person and then also

This is like a weird one because when I was like very young like my OCD started with like you

know intrusive thoughts you know just like really weird ones and then like it all it almost became a compulsion to like step on cracks on the sidewalk

And now it's like now it's like, now it's like, oh, I can't use my left leg.

And it's like, hey, Wilhelm, you can use your left leg.

Like you can walk, you can use it, and it's starting to get out of hand where it's like a compulsion of just like not using my left leg and it sounds like crazy because like that's what

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