Since high school I've been cycling between two phases.

Phase number one, wow, this girl is productive.

Wow, this girl does not stop.

Wow, this girl is on fire. Wow, she doesn't sleep. And then cycle number two, wow, this

girl cannot get out of bed. She can't get anything done. She has not gotten anything done in a week. What's wrong with this

girl? Is she okay? Since high school, I've been bouncing back and forth between those two phases, non-stop.

I rarely find myself in between. I'm either one or the other.

When I'm in a productive phase, I just feel like I have

endless energy. When I'm in a productive phase, working just comes easily to me.

I sit down, I start working on something, and I just immediately like click into a

flow state and things are just seamless. When I'm in an unproductive state, it's the complete opposite.

I procrastinate beyond belief.

I feel intimidated to start projects because I'm not confident

that I'll have the brain power to complete them. I think it's because usually when I'm have the brain power to complete them.

I think it's because usually when I'm in an unproductive state of mind, I'm physically

and mentally exhausted.

Not because I didn't get a lot of sleep the night before, not because I'm sick, but because I just am, and there's no explanation.

I tend to waste a lot of time on social media, online shopping, things like that.

My addiction to entertainment becomes 10 times worse.

I can't focus, like I'll sit down and start working on something,

and then I'll get distracted by my phone

I'll get distracted by an online shopping website like I'll get distracted

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