The You're always a little bit nervous pulling up to your place that you're going to see that person.

The anxiety starts before you get to the neighborhood.

Social anxiety follows me everywhere.

It's the one place I didn't need in my place of living.

And as of this past week, I now have crippling social anxiety

walking back to my apartment.

Because it's an unavoidable experience

after I had a very awkward standoff with my kind of hot neighbors girlfriend.

I have talked to you about hot neighbor which I feel like I need to rebrand to kind of

hot neighbor because once I saw his face I was kind of like

he's good from far far from good. The back of his head was good but the front of

his head was going to you look a little bit like Milo from that Atlanta just in Disney movie you were like he met the height requirement he met the hair requirement he just

didn't meet the face requirement he was a butter face so the way I met hot

neighbor was I was walking past my apartment one day and I have a very specific type I can own up to that I love a man with long floppy brown hair and so as I'm going back to my apartment I noticed that there's a new neighbor because it used to be a

young family next me and I always used to kind of grown when I saw them walk to their

apartment because their kids room kind of abucked my room where I did my podcast and so I'd be like doing my stuff and then all of a sudden and he like,

I'd be like, shut up kid. So I was kind of like relieved. I'm like new neighbor and I'm like, oh my God, and his neighbor's like, maybe hot? I don't know. So then the fire alarm goes off

in my apartment in the middle of the night. I go downstairs. I look crazy. I'm wearing

dog slippers, Taylor Swift the Aries Tour, Mer merge, it's just not a good look for me.

And then of course I run into none other than hot neighbor,

only to find out that his face was only kind of hot

and not like as hot as I wanted it to be.

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