Hey guys, it's Rachel.

Last week I posted a video on social media that I thought was empowering.

I did.

I feel so fucking stupid in retrospect, but I really thought that it was empowering.

It doesn't even matter.

That's something I've been told over the last week and a half is it doesn't matter why.

It matters how it was received and how it was received was deeply hurtful for a lot of

people.

And that is crushing to me.

That's crushing to me.

I've done so much reflection and I still have so much more to do.

One of the big realizations for me is how deeply my privilege as a white woman runs, I didn't

understand how that would be hurtful to others.

And that's my privilege, right?

Because I don't have to filter things that I say or the content that I create through

any sort of lens, that is the privilege.

Like because I didn't think, man, how does this sound for a white woman to say these things?

That is my privilege and it is a fucked up and deeply unfair privilege that you have if

you're white in America that you don't have to think about the fact that you're white.

I hate that this is still in me and I guess in retrospect it's stupid to think that you

could do five years of learning and it will erase the 33 years that came before that

or the hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of years that racism has been practiced in this

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