Hi guys, welcome to the Lavendare Lifestyle, the podcast on Lifestyle Design for

millennials. My name's Eileen and I'm here to guide you to become a master artist of life.

You can create the life that you've always imagined.

Life is an art.

Make it your masterpiece. I confess, I never fully grew to completely love myself until very recently, like in these past few years after college.

Growing up in school school I was always that

chameleon type like I'm always blending into whatever friend group I'm in and I'm always

the kind of person to kind of shift my personality based on who I'm talking

to. It's just who I was naturally. I was very soft-spoken. I would never

speak up. I'm always the listener. And if I ever said something I would just like say something really safe and it was definitely something that I said in my head before I said it out loud I would be really cautious and because of that personality I never felt truly confident in

myself I wasn't even sure that I had a personality so I don't know if you guys

have seen the movie pitch perfect it's's hilarious, but in that movie there's

this Asian girl who speaks so softly that no one can hear her so everyone basically ignores

what she says. So that character is like a total exaggeration, but I can say that I identify with that girl.

If you stuck me in a group of people, I'd be the soft-spoken one.

Like sometimes I'd literally speak so soft because I'm like scared to say

anything and people would be like what what'd you say or people would just ignore me

and go on with a conversation Have you ever been in that conversation

where someone brings up something

that you literally mentioned five minutes ago

and everyone's like, yeah, yeah, to that other person

and you're like, hello hello I just said that earlier that was me.

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