Hey, welcome to another episode of the Mentally Chill podcast. Thank you for coming back to the show. I hope you guys enjoy it. And I hope you're all doing okay. I say okay and not good because I think if I say, I hope you're doing good and you're not doing well, then it's more apparent to you that you're not. Whereas if I say, I hope you're doing okay,

there's a better chance that okay is actually happening and then you don't have to feel like you're

falling short from where you should be. So I hope you're doing okay. And of course, I also say,

I hope you're doing okay rather than I hope you're doing good because inevitably

someone may say, that's not proper English. But if I say I hope you're doing well, then I feel

like I sound pretentious. So by saying I hope you're doing okay, not only do I protect myself,

I protect you guys as well. Overthink much, Kristen.

It gets exhausting. I have to tell you guys. It really does. I am kind of having a hard time.

And part of me doesn't want to tell you guys that because it's like someone asking how you are.

They just want to hear you say, yeah, I'm good. I'm fine. And move on. So I feel annoying saying I'm not good,

but I'm not great. I got some really bad devastating news and I'm trying to digest it and deal

with it and not fall into a dark hole and and lose it. But I wish so badly that the news I could tell you guys that I got that was devastating

was that the McDonald's near my parents' house closed.

I really, really, really wish that could be it or that it could be something really funny.

But unfortunately, truly, I got some really awful devastating news.

And every day has been a trial but I'm I'm luckily with my family I say that trepidaciously because I don't feel lucky to be with my family

right now because I would love to indulge my desire to stay in bed all day and be a hermit, but I can't. So in one sense, that annoys the

hell out of me. And on the other hand, it's good for me. And it's not like I'm, it's not like I'm

with drill sergeants where I'm getting out of bed at 7 a.m. Believe me, I'm sleeping enough for sure,

but for anyone else, it's enough.

But for me, not really, but I don't want my mom to frown at me.

So I do pull myself out of bed.

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