Welcome to episode 683 with my guest Dale. You're listening to the metal illness

happy hour if you're new this is a place for honesty about all the battles in our

heads. I am not a therapist and this is not meant to be a

substitute for professional mental counseling. I'm a jackass the cooked chicken

on basic cable but I'm also a little bit nuts. I've battled a lot of things in the

latter. I don't know why I pronounce battle to like that. I'll like all with sudden I'm a

Midwestern morning DJ, but yeah I I started this podcast because when I was at the depths, the darkest times of my life specifically about 20 plus years ago.

I thought there was no hope.

I thought I was alone and once I began to recover and feel hope and develop tools to cope, I thought,

I think a podcast would help people and I think I would enjoy doing it and here I am 12 years later 13

now 2011 20 13 years later holy shit and that's weird because I'm only 14 years

old yes I was just the baby And that's weird because I'm only 14 years old.

Yes, I was just the baby.

This is from the struggle and a sentence survey,

and this is filled out by a woman who calls herself diesel

and about her bulimia, she writes,

like a secret ball and chain no one can see,

alone, always alone with this monster that won't let me be happy.

Thank you for that.

That is, uh,

that's the part that's

the feeling in wanting to feel invisible and yet hating that we feel

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