Hey everyone, Benkimer Radio, hope you're awesome. If not, let's try and change that.

So today I've got another little reflection on my therapy.

This came out of my last therapy session that I also discussed with you about kind of pushing your time or being

a

a yes to too many people and actually being aware of your overall

physical, mental and environmental load

and this reflection also came out of that session but I didn't want to include it in that

podcast because I think it would be too long and I like to try and have a theme for a show so you can go away and think about that thing and act on it

rather than having too many things to think about and act on.

So this today is about what happens when you shield your genuine emotion from other people.

So what I've done is I've built a career in the fitness industry of being a very

positive guy being a proponent of living an awesome life being as energetic and positive and you know hopeful for the future

as possible but as we know every day isn't a rainbow every day isn't easy life can be

tough the older you get it can be tougher when life gets

more complicated with a demanding job, kids, finances etc. And what I found I was doing is I was getting into this habit of like

always saying I was awesome always saying I was okay protecting my emotions from

other people and also protecting them from myself and that's a very

important point. If we're not honest with ourselves on how we feel, we can't look to take the appropriate

action to resolve that.

So what was happening during sort of lockdown and during me having a few difficult extra things to deal with

is I kept saying that I was okay I was okay I'm fine I'm awesome carry on and

actually because of that it meant that the problem compounded

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