So it's been one year since my dad passed away today is the one year

anniversary and And for those of you who were sort of around when that happened, I know we've had a lot of new discovery in the last few months, but for those of you who were here one year ago who heard the first ever losing a

loved one my purpose with that episode with this series was to quite selfishly give myself a place to put my feelings, to put everything I was dealing with in relation to this, to this experience.

An experience that we all have to go through, we all lose our parents at some point.

People die, that is part of life. And so I wanted a place

where I could give myself the chance to vent and to feel and to grieve while also hopefully bringing you value by

documenting that process in case you have to go through it sometime soon or by giving you someone

you can connect with if you have gone through it recently and when I first

shared it I had so many of you, so many people connect with me, reach out to me on

LinkedIn on Instagram, on Facebook, on Twitter, and just let me know that you were

there for me. Let me know that you had experienced something similar.

Let me know that it gets better, that it doesn't get easy, but it does get better.

And... get better and I'll be honest still to this day that was hard to hear.

Like I know that it came from a good place.

I know that it's what I needed to hear.

But it was hard to hear.

Because in those moments moments I didn't want to hear that it gets better

I didn't want to hear that it doesn't get easier but it will improve I didn't want to hear that I will adjust. I just wanted my dad back.

I didn't want to adjust to him not being here. I just wanted him back.

And so one year later, I still want him back.

I still want him to be here.

I don't want this episode to have to exist.

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