189 SelfWork: My Story and The Cost of Battling for Control
The SelfWork Podcast
Margaret Robinson Rutherford PhD
4.8 • 1.3K Ratings
🗓️ 17 July 2020
⏱️ 29 minutes
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Summary
Transparency about my own journey with mental health has been very important to me, especially since writing on social media. I've named the illnesses that I've experienced: panic disorder and anorexia. But I haven’t told the full story - the “why” of either of these problems – at least as best I understand it from my own perspective – and the perspectives of several therapists over the years.
I see them both now as issues with control. Trying to get control. Trying to hide from feeling out of control . Fearing looking out of control. So, in episode 189 sponsored by BetterHelp, I’m inspired and a little nervous today to tell you my story.
The listener email is from a young woman whose mom is undergoing some type of emotional breakdown after the death of her own father and how that dynamic could be affecting the writer’s choice about getting out of a relationship.
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| 0:00.0 | This is self-work and I'm Dr. Margaret Rutherford. |
| 0:13.0 | At self-work, we'll discuss psychological and emotional issues common in today's world |
| 0:19.0 | and what to do about them. |
| 0:20.0 | I'm Dr. Margaret and self-work is a podcast dedicated to you taking just a few minutes today for your own self-work. |
| 0:29.0 | Hello and welcome to self-work. I'm Dr. Margaret Rutherford. I'm a clinical psychologist. I live |
| 0:34.9 | in Fayetteville, Arkansas. I've been doing therapy now for over 25 years. So I really am so glad |
| 0:40.9 | you're here. I started self-work in order to reach out and extend the |
| 0:45.5 | walls of my practice so to speak. To those of you who might already be very |
| 0:50.0 | interested in psychological and emotional issues, maybe you're in therapy. To those of |
| 0:55.0 | you who just been diagnosed with depression or anxiety or you're having some kind of |
| 0:59.1 | relationship issue that you just can't seem to resolve or to a third group. Those of you who might |
| 1:06.0 | have some sort of stigma or discrimination against therapy in general and |
| 1:11.6 | therapists, but you're just curious enough to listen in to a |
| 1:15.4 | podcast. So I'll give you my ideas and then you can make up your mind. |
| 1:21.1 | I just put down John Mo's new book, The Hilarious World of Depression, and not only |
| 1:26.5 | was it really good and much recommended reading for any of you experiencing depression, |
| 1:31.4 | it reminded me of something very important. The need to be |
| 1:34.6 | transparent about my own mental struggles. Yes, I've named them. I've said I have |
| 1:40.0 | panic disorder or more specifically performance anxiety which is a |
| 1:43.7 | specific kind of social anxiety and I've mentioned having full-blown |
| 1:47.6 | anorexia in college but I haven't told my story the why of either of these |
| 1:52.4 | issues at least as best I understand it now from my own |
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