183: What if everyone was watching you?
This Is Actually Happening
Wondery
4.6 • 9.9K Ratings
🗓️ 23 March 2021
⏱️ 55 minutes
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Summary
“If you could imagine having thoughts that frightened you, then other times they made you believe things about your perception or what you were seeing weren’t real or distorted…you would do anything to stop it.”
Producers: Whit Missildine, Matt Volla
Episode Summary: After making a successful career and surviving several tumultuous relationships, a woman descends into the darkest depths of severe mental illness
Today’s episode featured Melissa. You can find out more about her on her website, ifnotnowthenwhen.website/, which is still in progress, but which she hopes to create as a resource for others with similar struggles.
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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, suicide attempt, sexual assault, psychosis, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie
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If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | This is actually happening features real experiences that often include traumatic events. |
| 0:04.2 | Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode |
| 0:07.6 | and for more information about support services. |
| 0:18.0 | If you could imagine having thoughts that frightened you, |
| 0:21.9 | then other times they made you believe things about your perception or what you were seeing, |
| 0:28.1 | weren't real or distorted, it's absolutely insane and just so hard. |
| 0:34.5 | You would do anything to stop it. |
| 0:46.3 | From laundry, I'm Whit Missildine. |
| 0:48.4 | You are listening to this is actually happening. |
| 1:01.1 | Episode 183. |
| 1:04.8 | What if everyone was watching you? |
| 1:12.2 | Hey, prime members, you can listen to this is actually happening. |
| 1:16.0 | Add free on Amazon Music. Download the app today. |
| 1:20.7 | Hi there, laundry listeners. |
| 1:22.3 | Hannah and Sruti here from TrueCram Podcast Redhanded. |
| 1:24.8 | Your favourite podcast Redhanded. |
| 1:26.4 | We just wanted to say how excited we are to be included in Amazon Music |
| 1:29.6 | and Wondry's best podcasts of the year as chosen by their listeners, which is you. |
| 1:34.8 | So thank you so much to everyone who listened to us voted for us, |
| 1:38.0 | all the things you do for us. |
| 1:39.6 | Any of you out there who haven't checked out Redhanded, |
| 1:42.4 | what are you doing? |
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