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What does it go?

It's just like, what happens?

Farts in there.

I don't know.

Just farts?

Yeah.

Where do the thoughts come in?

I honestly don't know. Amber. Some people like this. There's no pictures. There's no voices. It's just raw dogging. It's like what atheists think of heaven. It's just in their head. Wow. Wow. But that, okay. How do you do anything? I don't know. How do you tell yourself to get up and, like, do laundry and basic stuff?

Are there just...

I...

Why does this hurt my head to think about?

It's kind of sad, I think, because my own personal voice talking to me, it gives me so much comfort.

Yeah, I mean, yeah, And you know it's you.

Right? No, it's me. There's no like British woman. Okay, great. Because I feel like sometimes the other side of that is,

right. Right. Right. Yeah. Yeah. No, it's just like Amber. No, that's me. I'm telling everyone to kill everyone. Now my voice is just like, you got to lock in. Okay. Do you ever feel like your voice is a little bit critical or harsh? Yeah, but then I have to stop myself. Like, if I get really harsh on my body, I stop myself and I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa, we need to say one nice thing.

That's good. Yeah. Sometimes those voices can sound like, I don't know, people like, our mothers.

Why haven't you lost five pounds? Why haven't you my mom? Why don't you doing this? You're getting a little

bigger. You're like, whoa. Not always our mothers. It can be all kinds of different voices of criticism from our past.

Sometimes they just get in there, hook their little claws in.

We have to remember.

I think it's a good idea to just say.

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