Welcome back to what the fuck is happening to my body.

Today we're going to talk about weeks 8, 9, 10, 11, which to me are peak hell.

I will say these four weeks historically, all three of my pregnancies are the absolute

hardest weeks for me to get through.

And it's when the nausea is the worst. It's when I feel the most

depressed. It's when I'm the most exhausted. It's when every symptom feels so intense. And I was

terrified for these weeks because I knew how bad they were for me historically. And I wish I could

say, oh, they didn't suck that much this time around, but they very much did.

So we're going to get into all of the details of the historically worst weeks of my pregnancy.

And I know it's also really hard at the end. Like when you're so uncomfortable, you just feel

huge, like everything in your body hurts. But mentally, I find that so much easier because you're like, I'm about to get birth.

Like I'm so close.

And yes, the waiting game has its own challenges.

But these weeks I find especially hard mentally because not only are they so difficult physically,

but you feel like everything is so far away. Like it is so early on in this pregnancy.

And also, I think it's very common to have this anxiety. I had it more this time than ever

with the other two. But I was really scared of the idea of something happening with the pregnancy

and ending in a loss and the idea

of having to go through these weeks again.

I don't remember feeling that way during my first or second pregnancy.

And maybe it's because this is my last.

And I keep saying this is hopefully my last pregnancy, like in hopes that everything

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