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I come from a very elite group of people called White Trash.

It wasn't easy.

We had a certain image to maintain.

When you have a place in society, there's certain things you have to do.

Car parked in your yard, go to jail a lot, and please come to your house.

Work, work, work, work, work.

And I loved Wayne today's talk. There's so much of it identify. I don't know about you, but my earliest memories in life was I didn't belong here. I didn't fit in and something's wrong. Something's wrong and I had no idea what it was, but I knew it was going on in me, and it probably wasn't going on in you. I knew that. And from a very early age, I didn't like where I lived, my family, and I instinctively knew that was all wrong. So I did the other thing that almost killed me. I never told anybody about that. Never told anybody about I didn't like who I was, who I lived, or anything. All I knew is this. Eventually, if I took a few drinks, I felt better.

The hole in my gut with the wind blowing through. Stop.

What I know now is peace is what I experienced chemically.

But I never knew it.

And I didn't recognize it when I had it.

I just knew that I liked it.

And eventually whatever it took to get that sense, even in passing, I would do.

If I had to steal it to get it, then I'd do it. And if I couldn't

steal it, I'd lay down beside it and claim it, you know? Whatever I had to do, whatever I had

to take, who's ever hard I had to break. My mother's the ex-wives, the people who loved me.

You know, when I took my inventory, it wasn't the big podium stuff.

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