Who Is Aubrey Marcus Really? Ex Fiancé Sacred Confessional w/ Caitlyn Howe #501
Aubrey Marcus Podcast
Aubrey Marcus
4.8 • 4.2K Ratings
🗓️ 25 June 2025
⏱️ 110 minutes
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Summary
The aftermath of the infamously viral podcast about my post-conventional relationship with my beloved wife Vylana and Alana Beale has been one of the hardest months of my life. It’s forced me to ask deep, penetrating questions about who I am, at the core of my being.
The process has been profoundly alchemical, a kind of calcination where all the bullsh*t parts are burnt away, and the real truth remains. What you will see on this podcast with my former fiancé and current best friend Caitlyn Howe is an honest exploration of all the vulnerabilities, cracks, faults, mistakes, of a real, living, breathing human being. I am so thankful for this process. Not just for the outpouring of love and support, but for the sharp critiques that help excavate what is really under the surface if you have the courage to look.
I am not sorry for being who I am. But I am deeply sorry for everyone who has been hurt by people who didn’t have the courage or awareness to know their truth. I have been on both sides, as a person that has hurt people and as a person who has been hurt by people. My prayer is that this story can in some way inspire that same alchemical process of self inquiry and clarification so there can be less pain and more beauty, in a world that desperately needs to balance the scales.
Thank you for following this story, thank you for your precious time and attention. Whether it has been in anger or love, it has all been medicine. Thank you.
Check out Caitlyn Howe’s new poetry book Ridiculous Masterpiece https://chakaruna.com/collections/books
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | Firstly, I want to acknowledge that we're dropping this podcast in the midst of a chaotic world situation. |
| 0:08.4 | There are riots, there are wars, there are challenges that are enormous beyond our comprehension. |
| 0:16.7 | And in this podcast, we're asking very personal questions. |
| 0:19.9 | We're talking about the way that the podcast that I did with by Lana, Alana, and Dr. Gaffney, |
| 0:27.9 | how that had rippled out into the collective and the impact that that's had. |
| 0:33.3 | And the questions that that's caused me to ask myself, |
| 0:37.9 | who am I? |
| 0:39.4 | What am I here to do? |
| 0:41.0 | What is really in my shadow? |
| 0:43.0 | What is really going on underneath the surface? |
| 0:47.5 | This is the most raw and vulnerable podcast I've ever released. |
| 0:53.4 | And so thank you to all of you for following the story. |
| 0:57.4 | And I'm happy to have my best friend in the whole wide world, Caitlin Howe, with me to share |
| 1:05.5 | this story. |
| 1:07.5 | We all have this innate sense that love is the most powerful force in the universe and in our own lives. |
| 1:16.0 | And yet we only have one word for it. |
| 1:18.5 | Well, the ancient Greeks had seven. |
| 1:20.9 | Eros was erotic love. |
| 1:23.5 | Mania, that obsessive love. |
| 1:26.6 | Progma, that rational love. Storgay, that parental love, |
| 1:31.9 | Phelia, the brotherly love, philotia, self-love, and agape universal love. And each of these |
| 1:40.2 | tones of love have their own characteristics. And I ultimately realized that all of the |
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