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Meditative Story

When words fail, by Thomas Chatterton Williams

Meditative Story

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Meditation, Mindfulness, Society And Culture, Personal Stories, Mental Health, Spirituality, Health & Fitness, Religion & Spirituality, Storytelling, Society & Culture

4.63.2K Ratings

🗓️ 28 April 2020

⏱️ 33 minutes

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Summary

American cultural critic Thomas Chatterton Williams is deeply in love with his French wife, Valentine. Accustomed to exquisite command over the English language, Thomas loses agency over his life when he and Valentine move to Paris. And when they welcome their first child, Marlow, for the first time in his life he finds he can't disclose himself — not fully — to a person he loves through language. When words fail, it's his six-year-old daughter who builds the bridge to her father and helps expand his own sense of self — in language, in life, and in love.

Thomas Chatterton Williams's latest book is Self-Portrait in Black and White: Unlearning Race.

Follow him on Twitter at @thomaschattwill

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0:00.0

Hi there, it's Rohan. For Mental Health Awareness Month, we're partnering with a few other

0:05.3

shows to bring you some resources that might support your own mental health journey.

0:10.5

This week, I want to share a little bit about a slight change of plans. It's a wonderful

0:15.9

podcast hosted by one of our previous meditative story guests, Dr. Maya Shankar. On a slight change

0:23.4

of plans, Maya blends compassionate storytelling with the science of human behaviour to explore

0:30.0

who we are and who we become in the face of big changes. Much like on meditative story,

0:37.4

you're here incredible life changing stories and timeless wisdom that can help you live a better

0:44.1

life. A slight change of plans is one of my favourite podcasts and I really think you'll love

0:50.4

it as well. So give it a listen wherever you get your podcasts.

1:12.4

Her ease with the language seems like fluency to me.

1:16.4

My French, on the other hand, is more rudimentary, unimaginative and uninspired,

1:28.1

even though I've studied the language since grade school. My relationship with Valentin,

1:35.0

though enriched and inflected by French words and phrases, is only possible as a result of

1:40.5

her facility for English. In New York, I'm the one to set up our internet, deal with the landlord

1:47.3

and the immigration attorney. I write the checks and know all the doctors.

1:53.3

But in our new life in Paris, I'm immediately my wife's dependent.

2:00.3

From time to time, it feels paradoxically that I am somehow growing younger.

2:11.4

Thomas Chatterton Williams is a writer and critic who explores in his memoir self-portrait in black

2:17.6

and white, the experience of being biracial. I've only recently discovered Thomas, I'm so glad I

2:23.8

did. As a father of two young children who have very different skin tones to my own,

2:28.9

his writing about the limitations of narrowly defining ourselves as black or white really

2:33.7

connects with me. The meditative story that Thomas shares with us today comes from a different

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