What Was The Exact Moment You Knew You Had Schizophrenia?
Am I the Genius?
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🗓️ 4 April 2026
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| 0:00.0 | Schizophrenia's first clue. The exact moment they knew something was wrong. |
| 0:06.2 | I'm on medication for schizoaffective disorder, and it's helped me tremendously. |
| 0:10.8 | However, before I was diagnosed, I spent most days in fear of being alone in my home |
| 0:15.2 | because of the visual hallucinations, even though I'd isolate myself to my bedroom. |
| 0:20.2 | Some of them were in my peripheral vision, |
| 0:22.2 | but I used to see hands snaking over the backs of the furniture, like couches or beds. It would |
| 0:27.0 | terrify me. Also, as soon as I'd begin to relax, especially before bed, I'd hear voices and |
| 0:32.3 | deep, loud growls. Once I had a friend staying with me and she didn't respond to it, |
| 0:38.1 | and I realized that maybe something was wrong. It took three years after that for me to seek medical attention. |
| 0:43.2 | I'd think it was getting better because it would stop, just to return a few days or weeks later. |
| 0:48.4 | Oh, I wonder how many horror movie scenes are inspired by real hallucinations. |
| 0:53.7 | I was in college. So much stress and anxiety was the |
| 0:57.0 | cause of it. I began first seeing shadow people, some passing by on a whim. I can clearly remember |
| 1:02.7 | one that looked like it was wearing a dress, going so quickly down the hall, but with it came voices, |
| 1:08.2 | jumbled gibberish with high notes of laughter. Then came the whispers. I got on medication |
| 1:13.0 | soon after. During this time, my anxiety wouldn't let up. Also, I saw many things as a child, too. |
| 1:20.2 | I don't hear voices, just noises and sounds, like the forcet running, window taps, footsteps, doors |
| 1:26.7 | closing. There's always a television on. |
| 1:29.2 | I think the first kind of event was when I was 20 living with a roommate. |
| 1:33.4 | I'd been hearing a radio playing loud music outside in the middle of the night. |
| 1:37.3 | It had been playing for an hour or two, and I just snapped, jumped out of bed and tore through the |
| 1:42.0 | house to get outside, and asked them to turn it down. |
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