These are my personal opinions always seek a professional when you're making choices about your mental health and well-being.

I've learned that you're more likely to get a lie from somebody, a deception, a manipulation, when they feel unsafe to tell the truth.

I've learned that over the years.

I used to be a person who could lie easily.

And I guess I could still lie easily, but I don't.

But in the past, I was afraid of confrontation.

I was afraid of not being liked. I was a people pleaser.

And so I found that lying was easier.

I didn't lie often, but I lied to protect myself often.

Or I fabricated something.

I made a small lie or I changed a fact. And that allowed me to

protect myself. At least that's what I believed. I believed I was protecting myself from being

disliked, from being not trusted. I didn't want anybody to dislike me.

I didn't want anybody to not trust me.

I felt a fear of abandonment, a fear of rejection,

so I had a lot of disfunctions.

If you've been listening a while, you understand that.

You know my history.

If you don't know my history, that, you know, I grew up in an alcoholic abusive household.

I didn't experience any physical abuse. I had one minor thing when I was four, but to a four-year-old

that was major. And my other family members, they suffered more and my mom suffered. And of course, we were all in fear because he

was violent when he was drunk. I mean, at least very, very aggressive. He was violent sometimes.

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