Okay, so after you came out of, you know, the main part of the health situation you went through,

and then you said that inspired you to, you know

help teach people and help other people you know invest in your

projects

what made you get that idea besides the fact you know you said your wife you know she didn't have to worry about it but why you could have went a different road you could have went hey you know what I'm going to go on vacation or I'm going to

take a break yeah I'm going to just stop because that's probably what I would have

done honestly it's like I need to take a step back and re-evaluate everything after

almost dying what made you decide to go the other way so you know I think it's important to know that I didn't have a moment where it was like,

this was horrible, oh, I'm okay.

Like, yeah.

But I was always, I mean, I'm in I I carry around a backpack full of meds so like it that never

Happened to a point where it was like full on

Pondering right different things like that. What really had happened was I had been in the hospital for so long.

It's weird because I remember looking out at the hospital and I've been in there for so long.

Like all these people were out and they were laughing or having fun

everything else like that and it was just a moment of like holy crap like I

really don't matter yeah like I could have just died been gone and nothing would have changed.

Yeah.

Nothing. Right. Like it would have scarred my children or my family and of course people would have mourned and then got over it and lived their life, right?

But yeah, it was alright.

And so I totally came to Gripsen was okay with, first of all, dying, I wished that I would have, and realizing there's things that are way worse than death.

And also to the fact that, I just don't matter that much.

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