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Last Tuesday when I was teaching, I didn't realize that I had already at the time contracted COVID-19 and I had

actually contracted it a few days before.

My symptoms at the time were just a headache, chills, and exhaustion, but I just put it down to having a seasonal head cold that I get sometimes

during the winters, but then tested positive.

So it's not been pleasant by any means, kind of almost been like a tour of all the various symptoms that one could go through during seasonal, what feels like at times like a really bad cold, other times like a flu, ranging from the normal coughing and headaches and exhaustion and fatigue through every kind of additional symptom imaginable.

Today it's been officially my 10th day since the original symptom showed up. Right now I'm feeling a little nauseous, but I guess it's a long-winded me at Copa, just hopefully I'll make some sense and that I'll be

able to put something together worthy of your attention for tonight.

Tonight I'm talking about the inner critic and especially when the inner critic becomes pathological and

what we can do about it. So we all have primitive, unconscious, what could be known as bottom-up

impulses or drives that are based on evolutionarily primed survival energies.

These energies can be to attach to others for security,

to consume as much food as possible,

or consume that which provides us with a survival advantage.

We have aggressive territorial impulses.

We have fear impulses, we have libidinal impulses, and so on. And acting

out on these drives without any impulse control can lead to social rejection, shunning, disconnection, and for much of

our evolutionary history,

social rejection, ostracization,

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