So, uh, so here's my, here's my new thing. Um, uh, like this has always been a pretty, a sweet gig. I've always been a little hesitant to call this work. Uh, because I've done real work and this is not it. And so I've always, I've always tried pretty hard to stay, to say grateful, to be grateful.

And even when things weren't working out for me to put on a good face, because sometimes I don't.

Sometimes I've lost my shit as a, as a creator and, you know, my fans just didn't know what to do,

and it was very uncomfortable for everybody.

And it's been this big deal.

This is a great way to open the show.

And so 2020 is this year where a lot of stress and a lot of frustration and a lot of bad

stuff is just going on in the world.

And by and large, I'm still historically doing better than averages,

but of course there are still slip-ups and what have you and I still fuck up.

So what I've been trying to do, like I said, great way to start the show.

I know.

What I've been trying to do is just keep a positive mindset and keep everything

open and keep everything going. And so far it's really worked out for me. And so far, this

positive mindset has yielded a lot of results. There's lots of new fans around and they're excited and there's

nudes and there's and there's more people coming in for phone sex and there's more people

coming in for commissions and I'm getting all this praise and all this love. There's, there's,

we've had some new numbers, we've hit some new metrics and everything's going really well.

And so my new thing to do in 2020 to start

this show off with is I do my very, very best to focus on one of these numbers that's been so

rewarding and how lucky I am compared to everybody else, just how amazing things are for me compared to other

people to literally, like, leave up a message of praise or support, especially if it's anonymous

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