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Skinny face, yeah.

Yeah, we're live. Hi everyone.

It's me.

It's Sundays and I don't know why I sung that, but it felt right.

Come in and I see all the usuals here and Neil who says first time that I've seen subscribers only mode glad I made the cut.

Yeah, so you can only comment on the live video live if you subscribe to my channel.

You don't have to be a supporter, but just a subscriber in it.

What I find is it makes the energy a little more positive because people who subscribe have self-selected to care about what I'm about to talk about

as opposed to, you know, whatever else is going on in the world.

Which by the way, if you've been watching the news, it can get pretty heavy, pretty heavy, which is why I try not to watch the news.

But every now and again, I get sucked down the vortex and you just feel you can feel the weight of the entire human suffering industrial complex, which is this mind.

You can feel it as the story we tell about the world through media and all of that because it's a story.

Yeah, things are happening, sure, but for you, it's a story if you're not there.

And we live so much in the story.

So what I want to talk about today is something, you know, again, I haven't made a lot of videos lately because I've just been sitting with, you know,

very uncomfortable feelings, meaning human feelings.

The kind of energies in the body that we are conditioned from very young age to avoid by jumping into thought, by distracting.

And for me, a lot of times distracting is going and making a video because it is instant gratification for me.

I get a shot of dopamine from it and I get to kind of in a way melt into the unconsciousness of certain things like reactivity.

So what I've been working on lately is something, and I've been working a little with Angela Delulo is, you know, you can have insights that there is no self.

You can't find a self in your experience.

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