I will come back to the Personality Hacker podcast. My name is Joel Mark Witt and I'm

in Tonya Dodge. Ever since I had my dark night of the soul experience last year, I've

been increasingly getting closer to the light. I can see the light thing in the tunnel.

There was a time period there where I couldn't see any light. I felt like I was completely

in the dark holding onto ropes that I was praying or guiding me someplace that were positive.

Those ropes were tools and things that I had used previously to do growth and development

and I was just really fingers crossed. It was all going to be okay. Well, many, many

months later, I think I'm at a place where I see the light at the end of the tunnel and

I'm heading towards it. But I'm still a little fragile sometimes and so if I let myself get

too tired, if I let myself get too emotionally and mentally exhausted, then I do the thing

that I do and I blow up. And so I know if I'm doing blow-ups, it means that I'm not piecing

myself very well. And the reason why I'm saying all of that is because yesterday I blew

up at you, Joel. We were supposed to be recording podcasts and I don't even remember what

you said, but for some reason it just sent me off. It triggered me and I got really, really

extremely irate and then just was like, I don't know why am I right and I'm storming off

and I'm going to go for run and I went downstairs and I went on a run on the treadmill for like

a really long time actually. I think I ran longer than I had run in memory. Got whatever

was in me, cycled out and came back up and I apologized for my behavior and then we were okay.

But you handled that situation expertly and one of the things that you did is that you just

made sure that you stayed into the super super zen space and didn't do anything to exacerbate

the situation. But I know that I know that wasn't easy. It's not easy in the time period of an

argument where somebody's coming at you for apparently no reason to instead of standing your

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