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Thank you. Thank you. What's up to another episode of the

podcast with Stephanie and Olivia?

It is May 31st here.

Olivia is already in June. It was also just Miss Olivia's birthday.

So everyone's a happy birthday, belated birthday. Thank you. Thank you. It is, I don't know.

I know I have to keep saying this, but I feel like I'd have to keep saying it because it's just like embarrassing that my brain just like does not work because I'm just so sleep deprived and tired and run down. But I'm doing my best. I'm here. I'm showing up for everyone. I do have one. It's not even a story. It's just something silly that just, it just happens. So it's on my mind. But I've been struggling with baby Jack's sleep, as we all know. And one thing that he has decided he likes to do before he falls asleep is pull out my hair. So not only do I have postpartum hair loss, but even if I put

my hair up, he likes to pull, you know, like you have those little pieces that just like won't go in a

ponytail because they're like at the bottom of your head and they're just like short little baby

hairs almost. He always has to grab those. And when he's like falling asleep, he just like pulls it basically. You're just pulling it, pulling it, pulling it. And I could just feel them ripping out. But I'm so desperate for him to sleep. I just let him do it. I don't even care. And then when he's finally like asleep in my arms, I have to like go to his hand while he's sleeping and like pull all of my hairs out from between his fingers so that he doesn't get a hair tourniquet. But that's how desperate I am for him to sleep, that I just let him pull my hair out and just deal with the pain. I remember with my second daughter, when she was probably about Jack's age, about nine months old, I was a bride's maid in a wedding.

And I remember we were getting our hair done, like the hairdresser came to the house to do it. And it was a guy and he goes to me, I could just tell you've just had a baby. Because, you know, you get all the little sticking up baby hairs. Yes, I have that so bad right now. I have so many dumb little sticking up hairs. it's the worst, but I'm like, I guess at least they're growing back.

Yeah.

And I'm pretty sure they're all growing back.

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