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Cheryl

Have you ever been the third point in an infidelity triangle by which I mean the other man?

No, I wanted to, I crushed hard on a married woman and had in fact a beautiful but chilling experience with this woman who I had crushed on for years

And then I went to visit this couple and they were going through a certain kind of upheaval and late one night nothing ever happened but I felt for the first time after the husband had gone to bed

There was a moment that I, you know, have commemorated in some awful poem and thought about for years where I realized that this person who I had psychically been chasing around for so long and coveting was actually because of turmoil within her marriage

I had her marriage ready to have physical sexual contact with me or at least it seemed very clear and I got very frightened and kind of freaked out by it

My bluff was called and I backed away from the situation but it has been rattling around inside for, you know, it still is

It was a real moment of realizing that I was transgressing and unlike many third points I knew both and loved and still loved both of those people

Is that why you backed away because of your your allegiance to the husband?

I think unconsciously what I wanted was to get married and be in a happy marriage and the moment I saw that this happy marriage was like most marriages not so happy

I felt very frightened and disillusioned

What about you?

I've never been in a full-blown affair where I was that other woman, that third point

But I approached it. I had met this really charismatic man who was maybe five or seven years older than me

When I was 19 he was in a poetry class that I took as an undergraduate

His wife at the time when I first met him was just, you know, having a baby and I just had a crush on him

And years passed, maybe five years passed, and I was in the midst of getting divorced from my first husband

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