What you want in your heart of hearts, in your natural flesh, in your carnal self, is to ultimately destroy yourself.

This is a God that goes, well, I mean, like, what you hate me for is that I'm committed to your flourishing. I was thinking to myself a few minutes ago when I was thinking through that beautiful passage

about us again, or God's people again, that need recovery so badly, picking up those

tambourines once more.

And I thought about something that has gone through my mind more times than I could possibly count.

For a number of years, when I was in my early 20s, I was probably 21 when I began teaching

aerobics at my church, and I was 32 when God called me out of it, and it would lead to,

which I didn't know at that time, it would lead to writing Bible studies, but I know that.

When I was 18 years old, I felt the call of God on my life just unmistakably, and that's its own

story.

But what I didn't know, because when that call

came on my life, I didn't know what he was calling me to. You know, there are people that know,

they will say, like, I was called to this. I've got some friends who were called to preach,

called to the mission field. All I really got a sense of in my life is I was just like called to do whatever he told me.

Anybody know what I'm talking about?

So all I knew to do from that point forward was just the next thing.

Well, right after I got married, this was just late 70s, early 80s.

This was the aerobics craze.

And so the women at my church always been really, really involved in whatever, my local

body of believers, whatever God had called me to there in my local community.

And so some of the women, knowing I was back from college and that this craze was having said,

Beth, you need to teach us in a robius class.

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