How are we doing everybody and welcome back to the Sean Atwood channel. It is what day is it today Thursday?

So I'm losing it. I'm losing it today. I'm not going to lie. So good morning, good afternoon and Buenos

Dias. Welcome back to Rook Daly. I'm Ron Swanson. This is the Sean Atwood channel. We're here with Paula M. Out the Door. And how are you

doing today, Paula? What's been happening? Let's fill us in on your life. I feel like you've been

absent for so long and it's been a while since you've been right at the start with us. So tell

us, tell us how things have been for you. Well, there have been, okay, you know, I finished my treatment on the fifth. So I'm just waiting, you know, it's, I'm,

I still have to wait until, um, for more tests to make sure that I'm completely clear of cancer.

But it's a thing I was telling you before we got here that even if, if I'm declared cancer

free, you know, in my mind, I still have it, you know, because I'm just worried that it's going to come back.

And I know I was told to come back on a monthly basis for it to test, but instead I'm going to do it on a weekly basis.

It's just something that, you know.

Yeah.

I mean, I think anyone who's gone through what you've gone through has lived with the fear that comes with the recovery of all I would imagine, because it can't be easy living with that unknown.

The thing is that, yeah, I thought that lupus, because I have lupus, so I thought, I thought that, you know, lupus that was it.

I mean, if I have lupus, surely I will not get something else.

Yeah.

But, you know, it just caught me.

I guess like everybody caught me by surprise. But I think I really am convinced that the most of it all is like the fear you get because it's such a, that, you know, that diagnosis is attached to so many negative things.

You know?

So it's like I, the worst part, the hardest part was to keep positive.

And then it's hard for me, I don't know for anybody else, but it was hard for me to keep

positive when you're taking medication that's making you physically ill.

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