I just came back from upstate New York. It was my first getaway to upstate New York. I had,

we rented a little cabin where it's kind of not really a cabin. It's just like at this little

attachment to a house that overlooks this insane view. It's up in the Catskill, so it's like at the

top of a mountain and it has this insane view of the sunset and stuff. And the people that live there are so cute, they take you on

hikes and stuff like that. But I really was up there and I was like, wow, am I a country girl? Do I need to leave the city? And then I came back to the city and I was like, I feel spiritually decrepit. In the city? In the city, yes. I'm just like, I think I'm feeling a bit fatigued with the city.

It's just like non-stop noise. And I yes. I'm just like, I think I'm feeling a bit fatigued with the city.

It's just like nonstop noise. And I mean, I of course, I grew up in a city, but New York is much louder than Toronto is. And my neighborhood is especially much louder than Toronto is. It's very noisy. It was just so nice to be around like green. My neighborhood has very little trees. and it just felt so good to be like, wow, I'm surrounded by nature.

I'm surrounded by trees.

I didn't really grow up being an outdoors. to be around like green. My neighborhood has very little trees and it just felt so good to be like,

wow, I'm surrounded by nature. I'm surrounded by trees. I didn't really grow up being an outdoorsy girl, but I think like the older I get, the more attracted to the outdoors I am. I do kind of want to go camping these days. And I wonder if part of that is just getting older. I'm now at this age where I'm like, I don't really, when I travel now, I don't really want to go travel to like a city.

I've done the city and now I'm like, I don't really, when I travel now, I don't really want to go travel to like a city.

I've done the city and now I just want to go somewhere that's extreme R&R. And I'm like, what does this say about me? Have I aged? But it was so nice to just be somewhere where you could just simply hear the birds tripping and you can see the stars. I totally get that. I get the appeal. I think I love the I love kind of settling in that when I know that there's an end date of me being retreated in the country.

But I think long term, the social element of country living, I think I just simply couldn't,

couldn't do it. But I do love nature. No, and I totally get that too. I mean, I've, you know, we're at the age where maybe like starting to think about the concept of raising a family and like what that would look like. And I've just been thinking more and more about how important it is to have people around you. If you were to have a kid, people who can help out, people who the kid knows, adults that the kid knows, other kids that the kids knows that aren't

just like from school, like cousins, for example. And that started to be kind of a factor in my life.

So yeah, I do think living somewhere more isolated would be difficult with that. Although I do

think that rural communities are actually somehow more interconnected and communal than the city is.

Once again, my neighbors, new neighbors moved in and I said hi to them on the stairs and they simply just blinked at me. And I was like, what? Like, are you guys allergic to politeness? Like, I don't understand what's going on here. They were, like, confused that you had talked to them. They're like, stranger dangering me or something. I'm like, I just want to talk to you. Like, I just literally want to have a conversation in foster community. But then again, I don't

know if I want a foster community with a bunch of 23-year-olds, I guess. That's, I guess. This is me being like, whatever. You're just a dumb bitch anyway. Oh, you don't want to talk to me. Well, you're stupid.

But yeah, no, it was so upstate is gorgeous.

I was thinking about this a lot.

I've realized recently that cities have rhythms and places have... But yeah, no, it was so upstate is gorgeous. I was thinking about this a lot.

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