What did I get myself into, right?

And now I'm practicing toxicity, right?

I'm practicing toxic behavior and cycles

with holding things in, not talking about it,

and then either be a passive-aggressive

or just super-aggressive, but nothing in between.

And then he has no idea what's going on

because he doesn't know what I'm freaking out about.

And what you're unseen, what you,

what prop do you start looking through his phone?

I would always get like a feeling

or he would touch me different, right?

So after most rape victims are very sensitive to touch,

and so any sign of him touching me,

any type of, like any different,

I'm like, there has to be somebody else.

There has to be, right?

You talk about with a change of a touch.

With a change of a touch, there has to be, right?

And so I would go snooping around

because I'm a snooper.

I never imagined my public healing

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