Okay, hello. Welcome to Esther Club. I'm starting to think that I actually go out of my way to look as

crappy as possible for these podcasts. I'm not sure why, but if you're watching, you know, you see what you see.

If you're not watching, it's probably for the best. You made the right

choice. Um, there's nothing to see here. So it's just me today. And things are so fucking weird.

It's so weird to have launched a podcast. And then all the time while you were launched, while you were starting it,

you were afraid of a global pandemic. So you were just like a crazy scared mess and then that

global pandemic actually became a reality. And it's just like what the fuck is this podcast now?

What was it ever?

Did it ever get to be what it was supposed to be?

Not really, I would say.

But instead of just like throwing in the towel, I'm going to try to make something out of it.

You know, will it slowly become a cooking show?

Maybe.

Probably not.

But I would love that.

I only say that because last night I took a sushi making class on Zoom,

and I do feel like it changed my life.

But my friend from college, my friend Lena, said that every time I do something that a normal person does,

I'm like, my life has changed forever, and she's's like normal people just do those things and then like

They move on and do another one of those things

But for me it's like the world's biggest deal and I don't know what that's about

I don't know why

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