That's that black and white thinking, right? I'm here. There is another place where I feel

better about myself, but until I get there, I won't feel good.

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The topic I want to talk about today actually came out of my morning ritual, which I've mentioned many, many times here before.

But my morning ritual is very involved and includes my five-minute journal and some meditation and self-work and exercise and all these other things.

And as I was thinking through what I was doing, it dawned on me that years ago, not only did I do none of those things, did I not sit down and do a five minute check in with myself on what am I grateful for and what do I want my day to look like and all those things, let alone then move and drink the water I need to and exercise and all that. I did everything I could

to avoid listening and paying attention to the thoughts in my head. If anything, the thought,

the idea that I'm going to stop and listen to what my mind was telling me was scary, anxiety

provoking and was the farthest thing from my mind it's

actually not what i wanted and there are a lot of reasons for that one of the reasons is i didn't

like myself all that much where i was in life what i was doing the the difference between where i was

and where i thought i should be and all those other pieces of the puzzle what you know the people i was

around were not necessarily

making me feel great about myself, which meant I didn't want to spend a lot of time with myself.

And then in terms of really understanding the thoughts in my head, they all caused me anxiety.

They all made me feel terrible about what was going on.

And so why in any way would I want to stop and then just

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