Hey folks. So when I record these episodes, they don't necessarily just come out like that week,

right? So you know, things happen, life happens, the world happens, and it's not always necessarily

reflected in the episode because they're more what we call evergreen. So in this episode, you're

gonna witness me at a time that is not this time. It's at a time when I was in love. Enjoy it.

Think of it as like being in a in a time capsule with me, or you know, a delorean.

Roads, where we're going, we don't need roads. That's a back to the future reference.

So funky. Welcome y'all to another episode of Small Doses. I'm by myself today. It's a solo web.

And today's episode is one that I feel like it's like really, really long overdue like we have really been doing small doses for five years and I don't think we've done side effects like him and I feel like that's like really odd actually, you know what?

Let me just look at it real quick have we done small doses side effects of forgiveness because even if we have y'all we doing another one because you know you learn things over time.

You learn things over time and you're like, hola, you know, we've never done side effects of forgiveness and so it's time.

I want to preface with, and this is the case for every episode, but I want to preface with this is my personal ideology, you got to do what's best for you, right?

So I would hope that at the end of this, maybe I've like given you some ideas, maybe I've like affirmed some feelings you've already had, maybe I have inspired some thought, but at the end of the day, I'm just coming from where I'm coming from.

And when it comes to the topic of forgiveness, I just off top want to say that black people specifically be doing too much forgiving.

Okay, like particularly when it comes to racially motivated behaviors, I feel like we be so quick to be like, I forgive because God told me to forgive and I'm like, I don't think that's what God was saying in response to forgiveness.

I think that at the end of the day, a lot of times when we are forgiving in those types of spaces, we are allowing for there to be a representation of weakness and that weakness gets perpetuated and gets weaponized against us repeatedly.

Before going to be forgiving, we need to find another way of doing it other than let me come and hug the person who is harming us.

And I think that that for a lot of people feels like the way that, you know, we change things, but I think for me, you know, they would say, well, God's still working on you, Amanda.

But for me, I feel like you can forgive while also knowing very clearly that that person does not need to be in your space, that person does not need to receive your care, your love, your compassion, and that person does not need to be lifted up by you.

Now some might say, but that is the way that we change things, you know, when people are harming, et cetera.

And I think there's something to be said for that in the individual sense, you know, my homeboy, Shaka Senkor, he went to prison for shooting somebody and they died.

And you know, he did 10 years in prison and at some point he ended up, you know, writing a letter to the person's mother.

And in that letter, he asked for forgiveness.

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