You're listening to the Mommy Labyriners podcast episode number 74.

Hey guys, so this episode this week is all about postpartum and it kind of was supposed

to be another episode and then it kind of turned into an episode about postpartum anxiety

and my experience with my postpartum anxiety.

So if you saw my post today or if you're listening to this before you see my post today,

I shared something really vulnerable in my feed.

I've shared my experience with postpartum anxiety when I had it with Walter the first time.

In my Instagram story, I shared it probably when Rowland was, I don't know, two months

old, something like that.

And I talked about how with Walter, I was just always really, really worried about him.

I was always worried that he was going to die.

I was always worried that he was going to hit his head in a weird way and I was going to have

to go to the hospital with him and you know, then they were going to find out he has cancer.

Then this is going to have, it's like I would completely spiral and it got bad to the point

where I just was very, very controlling over a lot of things with him because I was just

really, really worried about him in a not so healthy way.

And eventually, you know, he got older and I stopped being as worried.

But it kind of never really completely, completely went away.

Anxiety is something that I've dealt with my whole life and motherhood brings out the

best in ya.

And it certainly brought out my anxiety when I was postpartum with Walter.

So I had that experience with Walter and then I got pregnant with Ryland and I knew that

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