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I remember every detail,

down to the color of the grass or what flower was in the vase.

Have you ever had your brain?

It'll be thinking of memories, and it's almost like if you open a book and you flip through the pages so fast.

And it's like clips of memories in my brain.

Like, I'll be awake during the day and just like...

And it could be like a memory of us sewing in the sewing room or doing something in the kitchen

or we didn't go to the dentist. So they had the dentist tools to kind of clean our teeth,

you know, memory of that, just a little random things.

There's a stickiness to Lindsay's memories.

Images and phrases crop up again and again, sometimes unprompted.

These memories are vivid and immersive.

There's this one memory that feels like a tiny encapsulation of so many things Lindsay faced back then,

a memory we came back to several times. It's from her early days as a maiden, a time she could

have gotten help when someone could have seen something was off. I had to go to the dentist.

I think I had like a really bad cavity or something like that.

This was back when the maidens were still allowed to go to the dentist.

They weren't using their own dental tools yet.

My mom had to take me because I'm only 14.

And I remember being in the dentist office, in the chair, and the dental assistant noticed the ring.

The gold ring Victor had given her in the spiritual marriage ceremony to mark her commitment to him.

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