Oh my goodness, I'm back. It feels good to be back on the mic talking to you. Oh my God. I've been gone for so long.

And I think part of honestly coming back that's hard is like you feel that intimidation of like when you haven't texted someone back in a really long time and you're like, I know that they're probably not upset with me.

But in my irrational mind, I should say, they're like pissed at me for not texting back. And I'm not texting back. And it's been a week. And now I'm like, oh my God, I'm stressed about texting them back because they're probably pissed at me for not texting back. So you don't text them back for another week because you're stressed about it. So instead of just doing the thing that's stressing you out, you avoid the thing that's stressing you out. Have anyone ever been there because I was there? But we back.

Oh my God.

Okay, where do I even begin?

Four months of being away, four months of being away from the mic.

And I always knew I was coming back, but I just didn't know how I was going to do that.

You know what I mean?

When you're like, how do I even explain the change that I've gone through in four months

to you guys? Because I am a completely different person. Honestly, I'm probably going to even talk

different. I don't know. I don't know for sure. Um, I have not recorded since May slash release an

episode. I have done a few episodes that are going to come out simultaneously

and I just didn't release them because I just wanted to have an honest conversation with you guys

before having anybody else's conversations on this podcast. Like transparently, I didn't even

know who I was supposed to show up as because I was in an adamant leap of life, like a quantum leap,

like a collapse of time.

Callan Faulkner always talks about this.

She's one of my best friend.

She's been on the podcast before.

And my incredible friend group of people who are expanders for me, we always talk about

this.

But I know for a fact, I have changed in the

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