Rerelease: Divine & The Self Medicating Rage Filled Narcissist | Domestic Violence

Narcissist Apocalypse: Patterns of Abuse

Abuse Survivor Network

Society & Culture, Relationships, True Crime, Education, Self-improvement

4.8 • 740 Ratings

🗓️ 7 December 2025

⏱️ 107 minutes

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Summary

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Divine recounts the story of her abusive her ex. Divine describes her ex's insecurities and jealousy that led to violent outbursts and attempts to control her. Divine's story highlights the cycle of abuse, the impact on her mental and physical health, and the challenges of leaving for good. It's a story of walking on eggsells, love bombing, post separation abuse, financial abuse, cycles of abuse, insecurities, jealousy, substance abuse, losing yourself within the relationship, infidelity, suicide, and control. +++ This episode of Narcissist Apocalypse is a rerelease. We did our best to fix the sound from the original episode with newer technologies. It's not perfect, but we feel it's a better listening experience than before. +++ Content Warning - We do discuss suicide multiple times in this episode. Please do not listen if this triggers you. PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Bitch is a Bad Word | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource. If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.). To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠

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0:00.0	On this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, we talk with an abuse survivor named Divine,
0:06.5	and Divine was in an abusive marriage with a rage-filled partner who loved to self-medicate.
0:11.7	It's a story about walking on eggshells, making sure everything is just right,
0:16.1	and losing yourself for the sake of avoiding explosions.
0:45.5	Music losing yourself for the sake of avoiding explosions. Welcome to Narcissist Apocalypse, a podcast that gives a voice to survivors of narcissistic abuse.
0:52.3	I am Brandon Chadwick, but my friends call me Chad, and thanks for tuning into this episode.
0:58.3	So what is a narcissist, you may ask? Well, for the purposes of this podcast, we refer to a narcissist as anyone who has displayed a pattern of behavior that shows a limited
1:04.0	capacity to appreciate others' perspectives. It is that simple. And now, before we get to our episode with Divine, I just wanted to thank
1:15.3	everyone in the Narcissist Apocalypse community for listening to the show and sharing your thoughts
1:20.0	by email, Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook. A big shout out to all of our friends and our Narcissist
1:25.7	Apocalypse Facebook support group for just being a great group of people.
1:29.9	Also, a reminder, if you haven't left us a review on whatever podcast service you use, Spotify,
1:35.6	Apple, Google, Stitcher, CastBox, et cetera, et cetera, leave us a five-star written review as it
1:41.3	helps out our show when it comes to rankings.
1:44.5	Now, if you want to be part of our show, go to our website at Narcissistapocalypse.com
1:50.9	and fill out the guest form at the top of the page.
1:54.5	It says guest form, click on it.
1:56.0	There'll be a form.
1:57.2	Fill it out, send it over, and we'll go from there.
2:00.4	But the quickest way to be part of our show
2:02.4	is to also go to our website at Narcissistapocalypse.com and to read a letter to your narcissist. And to be
2:09.1	part of our letters to our Narcissist compilation episode, we have a voicemail recorder on our page.
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