And the Testing one, two three, testing one, two one two three this is radio free Mormon on the air

broadcasting behind enemy lines tonight's episode bill Reels disciplinary council it is Tonight's disciplinary counsel.

It is today

November 19th, 2018.

It is 7 o'clock in the morning, my time,

and I am lucky enough to have Bill Reel on the program.

He's been very busy over the last several days.

Let me just say first off, good morning to you, Bill, and then I'll set the stage for this

discussion. Good morning.

Good morning to you, my friend.

Are you pretty tired out by now?

So one of the things we'll probably get into, at least for a moment,

is that this process does impose extra trauma and so as we work through all this, yeah, I mean I'm sleeping okay, life is good, but I'm beginning to feel that this is beginning to kind of present itself in my body.

Some people make comments about how because this is something that was expected and not completely out of the blue that for some reason that that means it should not cause any kind of trauma.

But anybody who's had a mother or father or other close family member die from a prolonged

illness and the end is not something that was unexpected.

In fact, you could see it coming a mile away and yet when it does happen

finally even though it was expected that doesn't mean that you don't feel sadness and

loss because of it right very much the case.

I knew this was always a possibility and those around me in our close circle are constantly

asking me and helping me to kind of work through when that day would come,

what it would look like.

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