Hey, bro. I'm in a really smokey room. Oh, right now. Oh, all right. Do you need help?

Are you dropped? Yeah. I dropped. No, I am right next to an open window, in fact, but

I was feeling, I was feeling a good charcoal disc situation. And so I've just kind of been

carrying this lit disc with me in your bare hands, various rooms that I'm in. No, I have

it. It's actually double decked. I've got it in a burning dish and then that burning

dish is on Avon's ash tray. Yeah. All right. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's smoking away though.

That's nice. My eyes only burn a little bit. Hey, that's great. That's fantastic. It's

usually worse. Uh, I have been up since, uh, since yesterday. Yeah. I was wondering that

when we were messaging this morning and knowing when we needed to record today, I was like,

I wish I didn't sleep. I had a big ol fat anxiety, no sleep moment. Um, nice. Yeah. I just,

I just, it just wouldn't happen. And I kept looking at the clock and it was getting closer

and closer today. And I remember speaking to my therapist who was like, listen, here's

what you do. You just sort of wait until you're doing it one time and you feel like, okay,

I don't know if this is going to make sense, but maybe, maybe people out there who, who

do this, maybe you'll feel me, right? So sometimes you look at the clock and it's almost six

in the morning and you're like, I'm ready to pass out and pass away. Sometimes you look

at the clock and it's almost six in the morning and you're like, I could keep rocking. So

she was like, wait for one of those times where you just, you're just not, you know, and

just push through, just stay up and reset. So I'm trying to do that. I am trying to get back on

a schedule to do that. So hard. We have reached the point of like, all right, I'd like to go,

this is not fun anymore. I'd like, I'd like to go to sleep. But it's also that fun time where

you start having little tiny mini hallucinations. Ah, yeah. I know the ones you're talking about. Yeah,

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