You might wonder about the cell phones, anybody wondering?

Yeah.

If we watch our minds, we'll notice that in some way we want things a certain way and

we're trying to control our experience.

And so sometimes it's interest and sometimes it's a version and sometimes we're wanting

to hear something or see something.

But meditation practice begins by we have somewhat of a controlled environment to maximize

our chance of settling down.

But that's not really the ultimate point to control our environment.

Really we are learning to come into a presence that really can include whatever arises without

pushing it away and without reacting.

And what I'd like to talk about this week and next week is really how in a very fundamental

way we are trying to control our environment because of our fear.

We have some basic insecurity that even when we're not aware of it, we're usually trying

to control our way of being in the world.

Other people are looking at us, what we're doing.

So if you find yourself in a bad mood, if you find yourself angry or depressed, if you

find yourself ashamed in some way, if you find yourself feeling obsessive or addictive

and you investigate what you'll find underneath is that there's fear and in some way you're

trying to control the experience of fear.

Here's really under there with every bit of suffering that we have and in a way just

existing and particularly taking forms with nervous systems means what we're going to feel

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