A warning before we start, this episode includes discussions about suicide.

So at the time Leslie was dancing with us, once a year we would put on a huge

Swaray event and this is what this filming is.

I'm sitting at Joyce Siler's kitchen table in Logan, Utah.

It's a university town surrounded by mountains.

Joyce is on her laptop watching her first performance

with her belly dance troop.

She points out the woman dancing right in front of her.

It's her best friend, Leslie Wainsguard.

Who is one?

Leslie's over here on the right. Far right?

Far right.

Leslie's on the far right.

So when you see that, what are you thinking?

I think of how we prepared to go out on stage

and how Leslie was like going, it'll be okay, let's make

sure everything's taken care of, everything's pinned, everything's in place, you'll

do fine.

Leslie was one of the troops leaders at the time.

They all followed her steps on stage.

But Joyce and another dancer, Bobby,

they followed her off stage, too.

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