I am the most complicated person you'll ever meet. Like you can think of me as a

miniature universe. Teal Swan is a modern day spiritual leader. She uses

YouTube to spread her teachings. The first thing we have to do is to completely surrender. is the

first thing we have to do is to completely surrender. If you don't know, combo is a shamanic medicine.

Technically it's frog poison.

Emptiness is the currency of the future.

And lack tips us of the future.

But they're not typical self-help videos. They're hypnotic and they focus on dark issues.

Most gurus wouldn't touch.

Feeling suicidal, having suicidal thoughts, attempting suicide.

Teel's YouTube videos have been watched more than 55 million times.

And her influence goes beyond the screen. Some of her

followers have left their families. I just know that she had a big hand in

meddling in my marriage. Some people get so wrapped up in her message they move to her retreat center in Costa Rica

where they make more content to spread online. But are her teachings really helping or harming?

Nobody thinks when they're getting into the business of helping people save their lives

that they're going to get accused of the opposite.

What are you accused of?

Causing people to commit suicide, mostly.

Taking advantage of people.

The typical stuff is like, oh, running a cult.

I'm Jennings Brown, a reporter at Gizmodo, and host of The Gateway, a new six-part series.

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