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Hello everybody. Glad ambassador Jackie Shimmel here yet again another week.

You know I was just swerving around in my car and trying to hit pedestrians just getting

by the way I have to turn my car in on Friday and I've had to take it to get interior

detailed 600 times because my car is so thrashed and disgusting inside that it needs to be like

pressure washed with acetone like the ponzu it's not even this is not a bit this is not a joke it's too

real and I don't even want to get into it because it really does make me out to be a disgusting

slab of a human which is true. The ponzu in the upholstery is so deep it's basically infiltrated

the mechanics and I got to turn that bitch in and I'm already 13,000 miles over I've got a bum

I've completely tore up my McGrill McGrill and now I have ponzu seeping into the fucking

light upholstery it's a nightmare but as I was I was driving around I was thinking about life

and reflecting in this podcast and you know all of the things and I've come to the harsh

realization that this is a very toxic environment and the people that listen to this podcast

we are in a toxic relationship because I say and do terrible things and then I panic and I plots

and I stress and I toss and I turn and then the more terrible my behavior is the more I'm

celebrated for it with little to zero consequences which has internally not only created a monster

but has inhibited and encouraged more terrible activity last week I use the term bag at six times

not as a slur I'm an ally to the community I also identify as a gay man but that you know I was

thinking about it and I'm like maybe this isn't what I should be putting out to the universe because

you know everything is a sound bite these days and you I can imagine some woke eighth grader

with a tick-tock account and a dream good luck pulling like minced audio and making me out to sound

like a raging homophob which is not ideal and obviously not true but I started to think about it

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