Page 139 of the unfolding is the story of Karen Horn.

I felt fake.

I felt like I had to perform.

When my husband would be up in front every Sunday,

it just gave me another little notch in my anger or my bitterness.

I was a mess.

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Hi, this is Meredith Foster.

Karen Horn got really good at what she refers to as pretend normal.

Her husband was living a lie, and she was pretending everything was fine. When you're married to a pastor, there is intense pressure to appear as if all is well. But in their marriage,

it was anything but well. Betrayal, deceit, and hidden sin had eaten away at the foundation of their

family. In order to uncover the truth,

Karen would have to go to links she never could have imagined. Today's episode includes references

to pornography and sexual addiction. The content may not be appropriate for younger listeners.

I never envisioned myself marrying a pastor. I grew up, you know, in a very large church. So I thought that was going to be my, I thought that's how I was going to have it, you know, a large congregation and I love my pastor's wife. So I envisioned everybody loving me and being in this big church and everything, and it was nothing

like that. But I also had, you know, we pastored some small congregations and we moved a lot,

probably 15 different times in our marriage. We've been married now 36 years. I think when you get married, at least for me,

I thought I was marrying my prince terming. Really, I think I had expectations upon my husband

that you shouldn't have. I placed him probably above Jesus, meaning I thought he was just going to be my rescuer, my healer, my

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