That's what people talk about in the churches.

You know, where does your husband work?

How many kids do you have?

When are you having your next child?

From a young age, they always told us,

oh, if you're gay or anything like that, we don't even want to know. Don't bring that sin around us. We don't even want to know. Like, that was like his worst fear for me is that I'd turn out to be gay, and that's exactly what I ended up being.

The Mennonites in Mexico learned very quickly that,

hey, how we can prosper and how we can have more money is to kind of be linked with the cartel.

And so there's a lot of businesses down there that are money laundering.

How they sneak people over the border is by having contacts that know how to smuggle people across the border.

So my parents, they were very quiet about it, basically until I left,

they did not tell anybody because they feared for my, my safety too. My mom and my dad were physically

violent, not only because of whatever they saw on me that they didn't like, but also because I was

just having gone through so much and having gone through a family that had treated me this way,

I became very rebellious at a young age.

And I was like, no, you will do many things to me.

But I remember being like seven or eight and thinking like, you will not break my spirit.

Mine is the only voice.

What have I been doing?

Lay down my autonomy.

After that, it got very dark very quickly.

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