My psychotic mother spat in my face during an argument and weirdly enough I could not be happier

that this happened. I became the recipient of my mother's abuse for daring to ask her to let

go of my sister's hair who recently moved into this monster's house. As she was attacking my sister,

she spat at me. Why would she do this? Because my request was seen as taking sides with my sister

and that I was going against her. Her entitlement and arrogance would make God humble enough to

bow down to her. The reason why I am glad that she spat at me is because for once in my life,

I am no longer consumed by guilt, resentment and empathy towards her. She is now nothing to me.

For years, she beat us savagely, but what bothered me the most wasn't the physical beating.

It was the emotional turmoil that followed suit. I'd feel an intense white hot hatred for her,

which was then amplified by guilt for despising her, and finally being overwhelmed by empathy for

her aging declining health and loneliness. And by the way, this loneliness was caused by her toxic

behavior that prompted the rest of the family to abandon her. But alas, no more. I am free from this

emotional present that I locked myself in due to her. For the first time in 28 years, I can sleep

without caring about how she feels. But this is what baffles me the most about all of this. Why

didn't I reach this point eight years ago when I became a recluse in her house as I hid due to a

health issue and endured daily abuse from her? I mean, what changed all those days and nights?

She would barge into my room and screech like a wounded hyena, completely ignoring the blood

stain sheets I'm laying on from scratching relentlessly, trying to rip eczema ridden skin off

of my sleep deprived state. Once she would leave, I'd still feel consumed by guilt and empathy for

her. I'd wage an internal war of conflicting emotions that would only increase the strength I'd

use to dig my nails into my skin to relieve this supposed itching. She projected her saliva

like a snake spews its venom on its victim. But unlike the snake which would kill its prey,

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