Hello, hello everyone. I'm Lexi Lombard, your host of the at Lexi

podcast and today's theme is how we speak to ourselves because this past week I was an

asshole to myself and I take pride and how kindly I speak to not only others or usually others but myself for sure.

I have a lot of compassion for myself. I have a lot of love for myself and I generally like to believe

that I'm pretty kind and chill in terms of how I speak to myself but this past week I was being a bitch

My inner dialogue was so nasty this past week. I could not seem to get on good terms with myself

having such a me versus me battle and I don't know why because if I were to look at

last week with unbiased eyes I got everything I needed to do, complete. My work was done on time.

I had some fun social excursions I spent my time fine but it wasn't an 8 plus week but you

would have thought that I was failing miserably the way that I was speaking to myself in my head.

So this is all going on silently

while I'm existing in the world.

I was giving myself grades all week.

Every single thing I did if I slept in, like if I woke up at 11, I wish I woke up at 10. If I woke up at 10, I was

mad at myself for not waking up at 9. If I woke up at 9, I was mad at myself for not waking up at 8. If I woke up at nine I was mad at myself for not waking up at

eight. If I woke up at eight I was mad at myself or not waking up at

7.30 I would never be mad at myself for not waking up at 7. But then this

morning I wake up at 7.45 I went on a little three mile walk I got some

groceries and now I'm sitting here doing the podcast everything is fine everything from

the past seven days has been erased in terms of how I was feeling about myself.

But my God, when I took a nap yesterday, I was throwing a fit silently inside myself.

Like, why the fuck would you take a nap? already slept in and then you spent all day at a pool why are you tired I was also just generally a little sleepy last week and I was

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