I feel like if I'm doing like self-reflection of how I was in my relationship, how I want to be moving forward, I put, I shouldn't put so much power and I shouldn't put it on a pedestal that, like, I don't know how to explain that, but it's kind of like, I, I, I valued it. I feel like I put too much on it. And I don't want to be, I don't want go to the extent of saying, oh, I made it my God.

No, no, no, no, no.

I'm of saying,

oh, I made it my God.

No, no, no, no, no.

I'm just saying, I feel like I, I was too, I don't want to say I was too invested because it was a relationship. But I just feel like, I just mean you were invested. I'm not saying you were invested. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, but I just felt like it was like, oh, if, like, I don't know, I just, I just don't want to, I just don't want to, I mean, yeah, to be that time. I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want just I just don't want to I just don't want to I mean

yeah to be that I don't want to idolize it I don't want to idolize yeah yeah I don't want to idolize a relationship

at all and I don't think I was but I think it was going I don't know it was just going down

but Tam I said that like I've taken some lessons learned in terms of just like the whole like

balancing your friends and like yes your relationship right and for me like and I said this on the pod

several times like I definitely was of an opinion that like I felt like and to be fair I might

go through that again depending on whatever situation maybe but I just have to vocalize it right

I felt like I had to put effort into this because I felt like my friends were secure like I knew my friends were my friends I didn't have to vocalize it, right? I felt like I had to put effort into this

because I felt like my friends were secure.

Like I knew my friends were my friends.

I didn't have to doubt my friends.

I knew my friends were going to be in my life. But right now I'm dating somebody and I'm like, I'm trying to figure out is this the person for me? Yeah, yeah. Put it in my life. So obviously to do that, you have to grow.

You have to plant me. You know what they're saying?

Plant to see what's our eat.

Let's pull up effort into it, right?

So clearly your attention you are going to find yourselves at moments where like you are focusing on that person yeah i think as long as you communicate and bring your friends on that journey is fine however i can understand like imagine now like in a room like let's say we're all here now. And, you know, some people are like this.

And I'm, and I don't, I don't think I've ever been, but you guys can correct me if I'm wrong.

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