Thanks for listening to my call of the day podcast. You can hear my live radio program Monday through Friday from 2 to 5 p.m. Eastern time on serious

XM Triumph 111 and welcome to the program.

Hello.

Hi.

Hi.

I can't believe I'm talking to you right now.

I've been listening to you in the car with my mom, like thousands of your other listeners since I was a little girl.

Thanks for taking my car.

I am in my 40s. I have an older brother he's a year older than me he's an alcoholic he's been supposedly

sober for 10 years I just found out this summer that he's been drinking again my big thing

is we had a huge site this summer. He went up one down to one side and down the other. It was kind of this stuff has happened before where he just just totally just feels like

he can just I don't know do that to me for some reason in my whole life I've just kind of

let him because he's my brother and I love him whatever. I get over it. This time I decided

that I didn't want to get over it and I don't need people like that in my life treating me like that and

so I definitely put him at arm's length.

But I'm having a hard time keeping in there

because I just feel like I'm sad and I miss him

and I just feel like I know he's never going to change but I don't know I just have this feeling

if I constantly want to make him love me and make him be the best brother that I feel that he should

be and he's just not.

I don't know how to get over it. How many other siblings do you have? I have two other younger brothers, much younger, 12 and 16 years younger.

When you were growing up, who gave you the most love?

...