Welcome back to mood with Lauren Elizabeth. I'm your host, Lauren Elizabeth. And I'm not a liar, but I definitely technically lied on the podcast last week, but not by choice. I just I didn't know the information that information wasn't given to me.

Okay. I had COVID. We fully recorded a podcast where a year ago, all had COVID didn't even know I'll explain it because it like is literally so dumb. So let's just jump into best mood and worst mood of the week.

My best mood is obviously that I no longer have COVID. I have tested negative. I haven't been like symptomatic really. I think I just kind of you know after you get COVID, I feel like you're still so tired.

But basically I told you guys that I wasn't feeling well. I sounded like shit last week. And I felt oh my god, I felt absolutely horrible. You know how like you don't realize how awful you feel until it's in hindsight because you're just gaslighting yourself the whole time of like it could be worse, you're fine. It could be worse, you're fine, which is just so unproductive, which we know.

But I got tested for COVID on Wednesday. And then like Thursday, I was like, oh, like I'd never like, you know, found out I was negative, whatever. So like Friday, wake up, I do the podcast. And I sent my doctor a note just being like, hey, did the triage, you know, let you know about like flu or COVID or whatever the hell they swapped me for.

And she literally called me back like later that evening because at first there was like a miscommunication she thought I was just asking about pregnancy stuff. And I was like, no, not those tests like the COVID test.

And so she called me literally always eating like dinner on Friday evening. And luckily I had felt so awful. Like I hadn't seen anyone I hadn't gone anywhere besides to the hospital with a mask.

And she was like, hey, Lauren. So it actually like turns out you do, you did test positive for COVID. So that's probably why you're not feeling very well, just like isolate and have your partner get tested for COVID.

And so I was like, wow, I have had COVID all week and had no idea, which is just like at this point, obviously COVID is super serious. Any type of illness is super serious, but it's like the only thing you like test for because it feels like you have like a really bad cold, but you don't test for cold.

You know, so it's kind of like hard to know the difference at this point because I just felt like I had a really, really bad cold. And it turns out I had COVID. So my best mood is that I no longer have COVID because it took me out.

I mean, third trimester, like 34, 35 weeks with fucking COVID, are you kidding me? And the whole time I was not feeling well, I just kept thinking, oh my God, the next time I get sick, I'm like, gonna have a kid, like I can't imagine taking care of a kid while sick.

Like, you know, those commercials where they're like having day quill or night quill or whatever. And it's like before they take the medicine, they're like taking care of their kids and they feel like shit and then they take the medicine, they're able to like play with their kids at the park.

And I'm just like, I'm so afraid of that. Like, that's like a genuine fear of like, I literally die when I'm sick. Like, how am I supposed to take care of a child? Like, oh, like, that was it. That was the last time. That was the last time I'll be sick without one. Like, oh my God.

And then for my worst mood this week, I just feel like stuck. I think I especially since I started feeling better. I mean, I don't sound like 100% I feel like I can tell, but anyway, I just feel like especially with all like the hospital visits, because I've had to go to the hospital three times now.

And it's like nothing crazy. It's just, you know, something is like a little bit inconclusive at the doctor's office. They have like better testing at the triage at the hospital.

So my doctor just sends me across the street and I ended up having to stay there to be monitored a little bit longer, whatever.

But it's still it's kind of like things have been progressing at a rate that they like don't during your normal like, you know, first trimester, second trimester to the point where you know, it's like you're dilated and this is happening. And like this test is coming back a little funky.

And so technically like we're at the point where the baby could come any day now, because it wouldn't be crazy for a baby to be born at 35 plus weeks, you know, like my little brother was born at 35 weeks kids are born all the time at 36 37 38, whatever, like there's really not a lot of time left.

And so I just feel like mentally I'm stuck in this like I'm so ready. And I just like want to go into labor so badly. And obviously I have literally no control over it, which is fine.

Like I want her to come when she's ready and when she's healthy, it's just so hard like I don't know if it's an ADHD thing or like what it is, but it's like when you just get so fixated on doing the thing that you kind of like can't really do anything else.

It's like you just want to go you just want to do the thing like it's like the only thing I can ever really compare to I say it all the time is like travel like okay we're leaving on Friday. It's like you know the life starts on Friday or like when you're moving right like something like that.

And since it's like there's no real day like technically I know that at 39 weeks I'll call to like schedule an induction because my doctor doesn't want me going past 40 weeks.

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