So your husband, Robin, you met him 2016, and he passed away from leukemia in 2021.

Now from 2021, when he passed away, what happened in your life? What was going on in your world? If I was a fly on the wall in your context, what would I have seen?

He'd been given two weeks to live, but he actually lived for three and a half weeks. And he died two days before our fourth wedding anniversary. So I was literally reading condolence cards on my

fourth wedding anniversary. If it wasn't for the people that have around me who became like a

fortress, I don't think I would be here today. You know, never having had that experience before,

it was just so, so devastating. And even though I'm a neuroscientist and a psychiatrist, I just...

I just was, like, totally lost and broken.

And then I started seeing Robbins in the garden every single time I went to the window, both in Hampshire and London.

I've never, ever seen so many robins in my life, like not before or since. I still see

them sometimes, but I noticed it. I thought, of course, that's what I want to see. I have no idea

what it means, if anything.

And then about six weeks after he passed away, I was asleep.

And I heard a noise in the distance.

And we had been burgled once.

I went to check it wasn't the alarm in the garages.

Couldn't work out what it was.

I thought maybe it was birds in the distance. Went back to sleep, it was about 4 a.m. And then I got woken up by a massive

thump to my shoulder. I wouldn't demonstrate it on you because it would be too much for me to

hit you that hard. It wasn't like a tap. So open my eyes and I could see next to my bed a very vague, hazy

version of Robin as if he was pushing himself through treacle to be seen. And I was just transfixed.

And I saw him become more and more clear. I could see the outline of his hair and his face.

And then suddenly he just dissolved from the top down.

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